First Round Over
A week ago, today I was discharged from the hospital after spending two weeks on the oncology floor. The moment they said I could go home, Craig and I looked at each other and headed to Ottawa. I literally walked out of the hospital, grabbed my essentials from our apartment, and flew to Ottawa Superbowl Sunday with my mother-n-law.
As I left the hospital, I never experienced this kind of freedom. As I walked to my mom’s car, I felt the winter air and it rejuvenated me to having my life back. I immediately recorded the highway on snapchat to all my friends. In my head, I was thinking wow I’m free, and I wanted everyone to know.
Looking back, jumping on a plane four hours after being released from the hospital is a little crazy, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. As the plane landed, I had tears of joy to be back home, away from doctors, needles, chemo, etc. It was emotional wheeling out of the airport, but nothing beats being home and being in your own bed. Now, I truly understand Teammates for Kids Foundation, building areas for kids, that is just pure fun!
The past week, I spent the last week resting and eating. I also had iv’s of hydration for three days to keep pushing fluids and continuing my strength.
Since my treatment required 33 radiations and 3 chemotherapies together, it put a toll on me. First, when you radiate your neck, it creates mucus, sores, etc in your throat. This enables you to not eat solid foods reducing weight, and then chemo induces vomiting. It was a vicious cycle to get through. Sometimes I thought I could eat, my stomach would say NO! I felt like my mind was saying yes, and my body was saying no. It definitely was frustrating time for me. It was imperative at that point, I stayed on IV’s and medications intravenously to get through the dehydration and pain. Mental focus is key during this journey. You have to find a way to push through tough times.
I am so happy that this week has been a turning point. I am able to eat creating more energy for me. The thought did cross my mind to go to Saturday’s game for a period, but I knew it was best to watch snuggled up in my bed. I know there will be more games for me one day once I beat this.
As Craig and I watch each other, we definitely push each other. He shows me how to battle and helps me mentally get through tough obstacles. When I would struggle mentally, he would tell me, “Nicholle tell yourself you can do it. Change your mindset.” And as for hockey now, I tell him, “If I can do it, you can do it.” I think we make a good team.